Hello, and welcome to your Monday. Even though as I write this, Monday is already half-over. Oh well.
I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed right now.
Every once in a while we need to open our eyes and take stock of our surroundings. Is this what we want to be doing? Is this where we want to be? Hmm.
Last night at 4 AM I had one of those moments. Look to the left, look to the right, think to ourselves "What the fuck is this?" and realize the path led us a bit astray. Not too bad, we can backtrack a little bit, but it's going to take a bit of work. And the journey was worth it, we learned stuff and had fun, but enough is enough. And there is no time like the present to make changes. Carpe diem! Live for now! An asteroid could hit me in the head in moments and I'd be dead, which would suck as I would be living a temporarily-unsatisfactory existence. I better hurry up and have fun before that asteroid hits.
(pause to wait)
Okay, no asteroid after all. Phew! So there's no need to hurry THAT much. But you still get the idea.
In Gregory MacGuire's book "Wicked," which tells the life story of the Wicked Witch Of The West, the author brilliantly proves the concept that everyone has a legitimate point of view. We all set out on a daily basis to do what we believe is right. And looking back, maybe we would make different choices had we known the outcome of the current situation; but punishing ourselves for not being able to see the future only makes things worse. Own it, move on.
We all fall in love with the wrong person at some point in our lives. We all take jobs we think will be fun, which don't work out. Hell, I kick myself for choosing the wrong fortune cookie after dinner when my friend gets a better fortune than I do. But I eat the cookie anyway. No big deal.
I changed direction yesterday. I hope it works out.